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在這數年的禮佛旅程中，不知不覺間，原來我在學習一步一步地放下──放下憤怨、放下不滿、放下緊張、放下壓力、放下枷鎖、放下固執、放下思维、放下情緒、放下知見；乃至學習放下期望、放下有所求、放下分別心、放下對錯、放下善惡……

感恩終於能參加復活節的四天禪修及歸依弟子工作坊，一段時間沒有參加禪院的活動了，今次這兩項活動給我很新鮮的感覺，同時對教法有更深的理解和體會，很享受這兩次的「心『零』之旅」。

第一次皈依弟子工作坊剛完結…師父用遊戲具體地引導我們怎樣用「零」、「0」這概念放諸每天的生活裡，如何調息我們的身心。

人對「零」、「0」這個數字或會誠惶誠恐…例如我說你銀行戶口只是餘下「0」，那你肯定徬徨不可終日，安全感盡失。因為人總是需要有一物在手。反之，如果你能套用這個「零」「0」在我們每日的思想行為當中，那就可以得到了宇宙的一切 (即可與宇宙萬物融合在一起，無分彼此、更無個人的喜惡、意見)，也可以與貪、嗔、痴割蓆，不相往來。何解？

晨早從家中出發，喧鬧的城市仍未甦醒，天空氣息有㸃煙霧瀰漫，在沒有陽光的日子，往覺修的路上仍是滿心喜悅。

一步步從密集的都市森林、走向大嶼山覺修寺的方向，車外景色樹木林立，小巴在路上繞著青葱氣味的山頭，心境與一呼一吸連繋上了，感覺清新自在。

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On the way to the Zen Center for morning service, I got stuck in the lift. I arrived at the Zen Center building at 5:25 am and the lift that was opened had a bag of rubbish in it. I hesitated initially whether to get in but as it was nearly sitting time, I went into the lift so I could arrived before sitting meditation begins. On the way up the lift stopped at 2/F.  I pressed all the different buttons and nothing happened.

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Barely a month into a new, passionate relationship, I had to leave Hong Kong for three weeks in Latin America. Before I had this relationship, I was very excited about my Latin American trip. I had never been to several of these countries before, so I was thrilled imaging my first time drinking Colombian coffee in Bogota, visiting the Panama Canal, or stepping into the Ecuadorian rain forest. Now, only a few days into this three-week trip, I am missing my partner so badly, and all that I want is to return to HK and be with him. The fact that we are talking every day has helped, but I still want to hop onto the next flight back to HK.

One of my friends attained something after reading Zen Master Bon Yeon's great book, "One Hundred Days of Solitude: Losing Myself and Finding Grace on a Zen Retreat." She was so happy after reading Jane's book that she became worried.

"WHAT IS THE CATCH?" she asked me.

"It cannot last," I responded. "Everything is impermanent."

感恩師父、法師們及家人的成全，使我得以如願在9月7、8日上覺修寺做義工。

第一天午飯後，我被委派負責覺修寺及見山閣門口兩道鐵閘的清潔工作。在猛烈陽光照射下工作了一段時間後，我開始感到疲倦。撥開膠手套看一下手錶，原來已過了個多小時。頓時又多了一點焦急的感覺，彷彿擦來擦去，鐵閘上的青苔漬還是揮之不去。

就在這個時候，心底裡突然湧出一個問題：「為什麼有這些疲倦及焦急的感覺？」

轉瞬間又泛起另一個念頭，像是自問自答：「如能回歸工作開始時的第一刷或第一分鐘，這些疲倦及不安焦急的感覺豈不是一掃而空？因為它們當時並不存在！」

從此之後的每一刷及每一分鐘，我就把它們當作第一刷及第一分鐘，然後不消多久便順利地完成工作，把鐵閘洗刷乾淨。

窩落於大嶼山上羌山的鹿湖，是本地僅存的百年禪林，保存著農禪等佛教傳統。近年，這個遠離塵囂的清修勝地受到外界的干擾，引起社會關注。

今年3月份，佛門網舉行了「來回鹿湖大澳的水與山」攝影繪畫聯展，陳列攝影師廖志添先生在鹿湖拍攝的照片，當中透現了一絲荒涼。就如大覺寺，多年來由衍禪法師和衍好法師獨力守護著，堅毅的意志誠然可敬，法師生活起居的情況，卻教不少佛弟子擔憂。